We End Up Together

having to sit in traffic for an hour and a half every day on my way home has really helped me work on my patience. i’m being serious. i am really growing as a person. it was just a few months ago that i would have a panic attack nearly every time i drove on the highway… now i have to be on the highway for two hours every day, and i haven’t had a panic attack in two weeks. some days i still feel like complete and utter shit, but somedays i feel good. not the whole day, but i find myself every once in awhile thinking how nice things are. like how beautiful the city is, even if i am stuck in traffic in a car that is 135 degrees with no air conditioning…

i think it also really helps that i no longer feel an obligation to be in a relationship with someone who makes me unhappy.  it feels so much better to not have to worry about how i am going to try to make someone happy that wasn’t putting any effort into trying to make ME happy. it feels so good to realize that i deserve to be treated better.